I'm really not in a good place.

I'm tired of making excuses. But it's a month over dead line and I've not even a 1/5 way through. I'm not going to lie, and I'm not going to cry like a bitch. I get hate comments every where I turn from not doing anything. I can't focus enough on making this game to get better at writing/art. My life outside outside the internet is shit. I don't know. I've spent 3 years making this vn and no one even knows my name. And the people that do say I'm evil. For something that's just a simple misunderstanding. So, if anyone's wondering why I'm so slow at making updates (let's be honest, no one does. This project is dead by now.) it's because of that. I don't have the mental ability to literally dedicate my life to making fantasy "erotica" and get fuckin' degraded for it. 

TL;DR: I'm undergoing a big mental block for making this game and I'm sorry.

On a happy note, I'm going to be getting out of school soon. And long story short, I'll have more time to do this. I think. And once I get this day done (in the game) the routes are going to be splitting. So I can make induvial updates on each route. So I won't look like I'm dead.


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I'm Very Sorry About this


It's fine. More or less wanted to make it apparent that I was going to be late again, thank you 


It's okay take the time you need and hope you do feel better because i very do love your work


Thank you. I will. I'm glad you like it, it makes the suffering worth it^^


I'm sorry that people are being dicks.  No one deserves that.


It's fine. Thank you for understanding 

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Dude I don't care if you're being slow or anything, you're pretty much doing this game for free, so no one can pressure you about updates, especially if you're feeling unwell. Times are shit with this frickin virus still and you can't blame yourself for feeling down. I'm just glad you're alive! That's what matters man! You can abandon the VN, do a decade long hiatus, but you can't be swayed by some randoms on the net that you'll never see in real life, for something you're not even being paid (well you are being paid, but I'm sure it should be at least 10 times your normal income). Just be safe out there in this cruel world man, you're still an amazing person.


Thank you. I'm glad you're alive too. It is tough times, I just don't want to stop making this VN. If I drop it, it makes it harder to come back too. I had to take a week off a month ago and I'm still trying to come back from it. And the more I don't update, the more people forget about me. I just want people like this VN so all the 3 years I've spent on it doesn't go to waste. And I don't do it for the money anyways. It's about the lesson that I hope to teach to people at the end game. You're an amazing player and I hope you continue to like my works. Thank you.

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Dude,  your game IS memorable, yours is one of the best and most engaging story I've ever read, and that includes books and the other hundreds VN's AND text CYOA. Hey now I know what you're talking about before. Your game teaches about perseverance and... uh, what is the word... something like swimming against the current. Like yes all of that is very hard and frustrating, but if you stop then you're done for. And you can rely on others (even on a giant demon wolf). Life is all about fighting the 2nd law of thermodynamics: to keep away the caos and make something to stand in our place when we are finally done. The will to do something and stay afloat is what keeps us alive. And you friend, are NOT done for. Much less will be forgotten. You made me laugh, cry, mad, scared, to feel how is to be in someone else's shoes in a situation that seems unreal, but it's not. In these 3 years you've been teaching empathy, it can be something else for other people but alas, we need to think more about others but also about ourselves, in a constructive manner. Not fully give ourselves to the world, also not to drown in greed and ambition. Annnnnd there you have it, a life changing advice from a boy barely past two decades old. Hehehehehe sorry, I just felt like you need it. Have a good evening!


Awwe thanks man. And wow. A boy barely past two decades and you deconstructed it down to it's bare roots farther then I had. You're almost right on the money for the lesson I hope to teach people. It falls in to the same category. So, congrats. That kind of thinking is amazing. It's really cool that you could predict something like that. So thank you so much. It means that I'm not too off to the theme. And I hope you have a good evening too. Thank you for that

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Hey! I really am enjoying your story and characters so far! 

Them entitled peeps don't deserve taking up your mental space. As far as I know, you do not have any obligations to anyone besides yourself for this project. Take your time and prioritise your own health and well-being first.

It's a big project to tackle with a single person, especially as a non-funded hobby project that your trying to manage while having a life outside of it.

You've done an amazing job so far despite how much your juggling. And I look forward to what you can do when you when you are feeling supported and excited to work on this to-be masterpiece~


Thank you. And it really is. But that makes the end goal even more sastifying to achieve. And good. I have many plans for this, and a lot that people aren't expecting from this. <3


Take your time.We're with you. So don't worry. It's going to be fine. ๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿ’—๐ŸŒน

We'll wait for the next updates. I'm so excited.๐Ÿ˜†๐Ÿ˜†๐Ÿƒ๐Ÿฝโ€โ™‚๏ธ


Thank you man. So am I. I have so much plans for this VN and I hope I can make something that makes everyone happy


I am so sorry to hear that Blue! I hope your doing alright! I Bet your stressing a lot I understand if you need a break dude take all the time you need if you want to talk about life as well let me know ok. 

Anyway keep up the swell work dude and as always stay determined blue ๐Ÿป 


Thanks man. I'm alright. Was just really out of it last night due to outside factors, and the stuff about the VN just tipped me off. I'm taking a break but that's the problem, it's been a month and I can't work on it for shit. And I'll stay as determined as I can being a vn dev that hates making vns lol. Hope yer okay too,. Haven't seen you in a while

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hey bud,you should't

 care about haters, but yes at those who appreciate you, and well id like to know you, if you want you can have my dm so we can chat, i dont think you deserve to fell like this and if i can help somehow you fell better i happy to try, you do an awesome job but i rather not have you suffering than see updates or even this vn being resumed, your well being is more important


Thank you for the kind words. I wouldn't mind that, I remember seeing you around here for a while hihi^^. Would love to chat

heh yea i been here, so you have discord or telegram? you can have mine @WolfKuugo in telegram and @kuugs#2242 in discord


you focus on you, fictional hot dudes can wait for your health, you're more important

Hehehe true true. You got a point^^ Thank you.


of course, take all the time you need darling, we'll be fine haha

Hehe I hope. Thank you^^


Who cares bout negative comments,  you just focus on yourself first ;v <3

The problem is, is that they're true. So it makes it hard to shake them off. But thank you. I try <3

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Thank you. If at least some people like it, then it makes this all worth it. Thank you.